damn it rains like shit this morning and i got no umbrella.........i cant believe i walked in the rain to work like that.......by the time i got to work i was totally dripping......its been hr and a half and im still wet......

been having very mixed emotional lately ever since last Sat........ i feel like im a total mess......why do i do this and why do i do that? i feel like somethings wrong with me. why am i such a mess

吳尊的blog ... he blogged in Chinese with English translation by himself

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/wuchun10cool&article_id=7213264

Went to the hospital today and got me mom some flowers for Mother's Day...i think it could be one of the first times i got her something proper..... i stayed there for a few hours.... i had been going and spending time next to her bed everyday since Friday.... it hadnt bothered me to stay there long hrs probably i think im too "heeir" of a person...i just do my own things, i read, painted my nails, fell asleep......i even slept on the patient bed today for a nap....i quite like having so much time to do my things... its very satisfying to heeir....  

Seeing Jacqueline's blog....made me wanna write something too..

I had dinner with Mohammad just now....hmm... im having more doubt about him...i felt like we both are quite unsure about each other...it really sucks how 1 week ago we were all lovy dovy being all sweet and shit and then bam we dont know each other at all.  oh well.....i dont know what i can or what i should do anymore..but i guess anyone could turn into a cheater or there's the asshole potential in everyone anyone.... im just really worry that i have one of those 孤星命 like that woman had and had to 孤獨中老 it seems like im such a failure in dating...

i gotta go to china for work tomorrow....it sucks i have to wake up so early...and im gonna have to rush back and check my mom in the hospital when i get back.  shes having the surgery Friday morning.  hope everything goes well

i dont know why, but every once in a while i really miss being in morocco